highs and lows

just hear me out…

you see
i wanna be
back on the right track
without you
indeed.
not lovers
or even friends
in lust
i need you
to vanish
therefore
i feel the need
to take cautious heed
my heart
cant take it anymore
lemme just talk myself
right out this door

you see
i stare into a daze
due to the numbness i feel inside
the man i want
dont seem to want me
and i
created so many new news
with this man
you see
we got high
rather
i used him like a drug
got me the highest of highs
like

martian status
leave the world behind
and the lows
left me feeling symptoms

of being used

so apparently

aint meant to be

this love thing

don’t love me
im not a good stalker

cuz I got ADD

and I get bored

wayyyy to easily

but funny shit is

he never bored me

they say

you cant always

get what you want

but sometimes

you get what you need
so I let my heart bleed

but once again

I took cautious heed

thought i could cut
all ties with him
so i wore his heart
on my sleeve
and then
wiped my mocos
all over the thought of him

but then
thoughts began
going through my head
like i needed
that drug
once again
and he had once said
"i take drugs
it eases the pain
because this life i live
is so mundane"
so i took a hit
& landed on mars
i didnt even look
at all the scars
he had left me with

from before

and then

the high left quick

as I shut my door

and mental thoughts

began to pour

into my mind

and I just couldn’t endure

slipped off Mars

and smashed right into

the world’s concrete floor

so now

mended again

put me back together

with some

paper and pen

and now
I just need

this to end

closure.

if you dont feel
the way i feel
or

felt
then tell me its over
because

im done
so done
never will i
come round again

wont see my face

even just as a friend

to me

your just another

unfinished

conundrum

i surrender myself
waving the white flag
im just gonna bounce
I need some rehab