Wednesday, March 31, 2010


hot like the earths core
bubbling up inside of me
u can't fathom
a temperature
to this degree
can't control this hatred
I feel inside
this gotdamn hatred
just won't let me be
just let me bleed
but as I bleed
break away from
each and every one of my creeds
morals and values
releasing off me
like seeds from a tree
gone to grow green
for others to feed
off me
but this heat
this heat it consumes
every bit of me
won't let me sleep
flames nipping at my feet
and singeing every hair on me
where ever could you be
my guardian angel
seems to surpass me
leaving me to fight these flames
that slightly tempt me
to become more like them
more like him
more like her
devil tempting me to grow horns and a tail
so away I sail
into a cestpool of fire
burning my boat
as I transpire...
into this hell.

Friday, February 5, 2010


I write. I think. and then I write some more.

when all good things come to an end
do we come to an end with them?
does bad things start when good thing end?
why must we fall from every high?
a fairytale life...
life is so far from a fairytale...its a joke.
but sadly, its no laughing matter.
I fear daily that I could be a better mom.
I fear for my son and the kind of world he is growing up in.
I am in constant fear of love.
uncommon but true. because with love comes responsibility. maybe I am in fear of that responsibilty that comes with love?
I fear losing me.
I like me...i don't want to change or lose 'me'.
I fear the judgement of God when I get there.
they say 'fear is nothing but the anticipation of pain-be it physical mental or emotion.'
so what pain comes from most of these?
not really any...yet I fear them
I fear the unfeared.
stupid right?
somehow though...i fear often.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

"Thats a FRESHER..."

i will be assisting a friend in making and selling some really great and beautiful jewelry. So please be on the lookout for the launch of "Heiress Jewels". i will be sure to post pictures and information on how to purchase these great pieces.

some more excitement in my life...i have moved on. from being in love with a man who didnt love me to being on my own. letting my heart recharge. a great time to be Mrs. Solo Dolo...feel me? :)

in addition, i have a beautiful friend who is modeling as a petite model. if you are interested, please check her out at

L.G. is good...