Superficial Stephanie

Comment Poster: eMiLeee © *its jus me against the world* Mood: accomplished Category: Romance And Relationships chemically speaking, we are ideal. mythological standpoint, a perfect pair. physically, when our bodies collide, the energy could burn brighter than any star in the sky. but still i...doubt. i stray far from satifaction farther from sweet seductions and sink further into solitude. im rude...let me introduce myself i am selfish superficial single stephanie. i think too much and have too much to say. i slip into a self driven coma multiple times a day. everything i do...i do it for me. if theres no selfprofit...shit aint for me. i wonder sometimes why i get down in the dumps, but if u doubted life like me u too would be a big grump. wallow and weep in my own weary pity and soon ill have worn out every wannabe mr. selfish superficial single stephanie...and i will still be alone

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Yayyyy I can post via mi tele ahorra!!!!

This may be trouble....

HeLL

hot like the earths core
bubbling up inside of me
u can't fathom
a temperature
to this degree
can't control this hatred
I feel inside
this gotdamn hatred
just won't let me be
just let me bleed
but as I bleed
break away from
each and every one of my creeds
morals and values
releasing off me
like seeds from a tree
gone to grow green
for others to feed
off me
but this heat
this heat it consumes
every bit of me
won't let me sleep
flames nipping at my feet
and singeing every hair on me
where ever could you be
my guardian angel
seems to surpass me
daily
leaving me to fight these flames
that slightly tempt me
to become more like them
more like him
more like her
devil tempting me to grow horns and a tail
so away I sail
into a cestpool of fire
burning my boat
as I transpire...
into this hell.

writing...

I write. I think. and then I write some more.

when all good things come to an end
do we come to an end with them?
does bad things start when good thing end?
why must we fall from every high?
a fairytale life...
ha.
life is so far from a fairytale...its a joke.
but sadly, its no laughing matter.
I fear daily that I could be a better mom.
I fear for my son and the kind of world he is growing up in.
I am in constant fear of love.
uncommon but true. because with love comes responsibility. maybe I am in fear of that responsibilty that comes with love?
I fear losing me.
I like me...i don't want to change or lose 'me'.
I fear the judgement of God when I get there.
they say 'fear is nothing but the anticipation of pain-be it physical mental or emotion.'
so what pain comes from most of these?
not really any...yet I fear them
I fear the unfeared.
stupid right?
somehow though...i fear often.

"Thats a FRESHER..."

i will be assisting a friend in making and selling some really great and beautiful jewelry. So please be on the lookout for the launch of "Heiress Jewels". i will be sure to post pictures and information on how to purchase these great pieces.

some more excitement in my life...i have moved on. from being in love with a man who didnt love me to being on my own. letting my heart recharge. a great time to be Mrs. Solo Dolo...feel me? :)

in addition, i have a beautiful friend who is modeling as a petite model. if you are interested, please check her out at soulheiressmodelingtroupe.blogspot.com

L.G. people...life is good...

I look to above

for help with this piece

argumentatively speaking

its my last chance to release

all the words

ive been holding within

theres no turning back now

i might as well just begin…

i remember when we met

you complimented my eyes

days turned into nights

which turned into deep sighs

which turned into moans

and then cuddling up close

all the while on that valentines day

you were daydreaming

of a ghost

amazed by the love

you had

for her

you say love is evol

i say you make this occur

love is hard

and on that i concur

but if i may simply deter,

love is not evol

rather you should revel in love

seems that’s what most prefer

however you have never been one to defer

to what everyone else is accounting for

you see

i

am here now

i never have left

i don’t live hundreds of miles away

possibly sleeping in someone else’s bed

no.

i am here.

If you don’t feel the way i do

Then lets play truth or dare

We’ll start off with the truth

And see if we get anywhere…

Is it true you enjoy my presence?

From merely watching a movie

at your place or mine

That time spent

never seems to be mere

but rather divine

when we politely decline

others offers to parlay

instead take the time to recline

and intertwine our minds in each others privacy

or maybe you favor

hitting up the bar

green iguana, prana…

even czar.

Then theres the Common concert

We stood in the rain

You recorded the whole thing

Until your arm hurt

Those times were all pretty lame

right?

Or maybe you were just being polite

I dare you to forget about me

Im sure its something you can do

Ive tried to forget about you

But it’s the last thing

my mind will put my heart through

theres too much there

for me to forget about

so instead, i sit in doubt

of any means to an end

for this sick little game

of make believe and pretend

as an alternative ending

i dare you to implore

what life would be like

if you let my love in

just open that door

just let me love you

like i know i can

because at this point

i am simply comparing every other man

and they amount to nothing

when i compare them to you

they don’t have eyes that remind me of the abyss

when we lock lips

its nothing like the disorientation i get from your kiss

they never measure up

as i compare them in my head

physically, mentally, or even in bed

dare i say it, you are the best ive ever known

and love is not something i normally condone

but when i go to sleep each nite

and your on my mind

to not realize i am truly madly deeply in love with you

id have to be deaf dumb and blind.

So i guess ill just wait

Cant make someone love you back

But i will tell you this

It’s a war out there

And at this point in the game

my heart is ready to attack

Acceptance....

This time
I
feel the need
to grace u with
my rhymes
have my soul pour out
over concrete lines
in lue of ink lines
on flimsy paper
because those lines
are not stable
not grounded like I am
and if I am to speak
it is with concrete words only
never cracking
always bearing any heavy load
I am speaking to ur attention
because without you
there would be no reason
TO speak
but only to myself
and that only leads to
a biased opinion
and any opinion is better than
my own
so I speak to you
to him and to her
to the deaf
in hopes they feel me
to the mute
in lue of their own words
to the blind
for them to see
where I am comin from
it is a simple concept
really
in honor of the words
I am about to speak
I ask for a moment of silence
and as a hush fell over the crowd
I heard two simple words spill
from the deepest
inner most part of my
solitary existance...

Accept me.

and then
my heart chimed in..
with a few extra words
that made all the difference.
and it spoke 3 words
with so much
strength and dignity...

And love me.

And with those words
the crowd roared
they clapped their hands
& stomped their feet
with such enthusiam
you thought the
world was crumbling to pieces

but it wasnt...
Instead...
Everything was JUST startin to come together!